Don't Read If You're Not Broken

God, even I can't lose him, but please, please, please, erase him from my mind, my heart. 'Cause you know how much scar I get from him, how much wound I'd try to heal, and how much tears flow away every  second I think about him. Please, please, please.

Recipe: Roll Lasagna with Chicken and Mushroom

halloooo....yeah, jumpa lagi dengan saya, hohohoho. kali ini, memunculkan sisi kedapuran dan keibuan dari diri saya *hah?*, saya mau ngepost resep. Ehm, gara-gara habis makan lasagna kemarin sama vhann, farras, diani, ria, en ema habis ujian, jadi pengen cari resepnya trus bikin sendiri di rumah, nyehe. setelah ngobrak-abrik google aakhirnya nemu yang sederhana dan bahannya gampang belinya di pasar. thanks to nccpastaweek, i heart you! x)


Roll Lasagna with Chicken and Mushroom


Ingredients;
6 lmbr Lasagna, rebus dengan air+garam+minyak, tiriskan (jangan terlalu lunak)
50 ml Saus Tomat
50 ml Saus Sambal
100 grm Keju mozarella parut (terserah keju apa aja yang penting keju)

Filling:
250 gr daging ayam cincang
100 gr jamur kancing/kuping, iris tipis (jamur apa aja boleh deh, sesuai selera xD)
1/2 siung bawang bombay, cincang kasar
3 siung bawang putih, cincang
1 sdt merica bubuk
1/2 sdt pala bubuk
Gula & garam secukupnya ( jangan kebanyakan dan jangan kesedikitan pastinya )

White sauce:
250 ml susu cair
100 ml keju parut (up to you dear, what cheese do you like)
1 sdm margarin/mentega
1sdm tepung terigu
1/2 sdt merica bubuk
Garam secukupnya ( pake hati masukinnya, harus dirasakan betul betul!)

How to make it:
1. Tumis bawang putih & bombay hingga harum
2. Masukkan daging ayam, aduk hingga berubah warna.
3. Tambahkan jamur, merica, pala, gula & garam, aduk rata. Masak hingga semua matang, angkat, sisihkan.
4.Lelehkan margarin, masukkan terigu, aduk hingga rata. Masukkan susu sedikit demi sedikit (jangan sampai bergerindil), aduk. Tambahkan keju parut, merica & garam aduk rata. Sisihkan
5. Potong lasagna sepanjang 5 cm (sesuai selera deh, asal jangan 5 meter motongnya), oleh permukaan dengan saus sambal & tomat.
6. Taruh tumisan ayam & jamur di tengah lasagna.
7. Semprotkan saus putih diatasnya, gulung & padatkan
8. Atur lasagna gulung dalam posisi berdiri hingga alfoil penuh.
9. Taburkan keju mozarella disela-sela gulungan lasagna
10. Panggang dalam suhu 160 derajat celcius kurang lebih 20 menit. Angkat
11. Sajikan hangat.


soo..that's it! nggak sabar pengen bikin awawawww! tapi kudu belanja dulu, hehehe. then, sampe segitu aja ya, bye bye an let's hope william and kate longlasting ever after *maklum ngepost sambil nonton royal wedding* hehehe...

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You should-a taste my lasagna
Ay, you no like-a lasagna
That's okay too
How about-a calzone
Some-a nice minestrone, ats good for you
Have-a some marinara
Have-a some marinara, I know-a you like
I know-a you like, I know-a you like

( Lasagna - Weird Al Yankovic)

Thanks God It's All Done :D

yeahyeahyeaaaah!!! wuhuuuu!! oyeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeee!! #kumatsejenak #abaikan #ohwell


yayayaya...akhirnya unas selesai pemirsa sekalian! yeah, kewajiban terakhir kami sebagai siswa smp dan salah satu syarat kelulusan telah selesai! tinggal ketar-ketir-cenat-cenut-cedat-cedut-dag-dig-dug-duer-wuoh *bahasa mana nih?* nunggu hasilnya. semogaaaaa kami semua, ya, saya dan teman-teman semua yang ujian nasional diberikan nilai yang baik sebaik baiknya nilai amiiiin :))


rite, sebenarnya saia nggak mau membahas unas. yang lalu biarlah berlalu, mari kita menatap ke depan *buset berasa mario teguh dah xD*


ehm, mendingan saia bahas saja ya, siapa saja yang berperan gede dalam masa-masa unas saia. hehehehee...let's see!


1. Allah SWT. ofcourse! my everything, always give strenght to me, the unrealistical, crazy, and unpredictable person xD
2. Bapak Ibu, ortu saia, i love you puuulll!! to mom: terima kasih untuk selalu mengingatkan saya untuk belajar dan mandi, karena saya bebal sekali untuk dua hal itu xD, to dad: terima kasih untuk semangat dan motivasinya selalu walaupun nggak bisa pulang dan jadi pemandu sorak untuk anakmu yang sedang unas (?) tapi terima kasih sudah telepon tiap hari pas unas.
3. bapak/ibu guru ter...eh..cinta (?) ya, terima kasih pak, bu! atas bimbingannya selama ini, walaupun kadang saia rada' "membangkang" tapi kalian selalu mendoakan yang terbaik buat kami semua. terima kasih! *90 degrees bow*
4. ceman cemaaan d’acom sembilan hem unyu unyuu *kumat*abaikan* dua tahun kita bersama *halah mulai wes virus pujangga menyeraaang* dan kita sudah menghadapi banyak hal bersama, mulai dari seneng sampe njembeki. kita sudah saling mendoakan dan mensupport untuk ujian ini, kita sudah survive bersama, dan semoga kita bisa lulus bersama dengan nilai yang sama bagusnya! 
5. my grand-grand and my siblings wherever you are. yeah, walaupun kalian jauh di mata lumayan dekat di hati, terima kasih sudah nelpon sampe kuping panas dan segala saran untuk ngadepin ujiannya. love you all!
6. guru-guru sd. yah, walaupun waktu ke sana dateng-dateng langsung dibilangin "kamu kok pendek ae? nggak tumbuh-tumbuh?" -__- tapi terimaksih untuk doanya: pak ari, pak isnin, bu badi', pak syaiku, pak rosyid, pak andi, pak wiwit, deelel.:)
7. teman-teman esde khusunya: zuzu, izal, galang, fikri, vira, ricky, iqbal, putri, semuanyaa. buat yang disebutin namanya terimakasih buat ucapannya, semangatnya, dan guyonannya yang bikin fresh sebelum ujian. aaaaa...how i mish you damn much right now :')
8. cepi unni! sankyu sdah nanyain "gimana ujiannya?" setiap pulang unas dan mengizinkan saia main game diam-diam di laptop anda di sela-sela waktu belajar xD. 
9. YUI, Kitaro, IU, Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, Usher, Pitbull, Gita Gutawa, Rihanna, SNSD, and other artists in my playlist. thanks for your composition and amazing voices. it's comfort me when i study, truly. bigbig thanks! hopefully you all success in your career! :D
10. not too important, but in charge too. bapak/ibu pengawas unas, hehe. terimakasih sudah mau mengawasi kami dan tidak membuat kami nervous waktu ujian. haha, thanks a lot :)


yeah, itu tadi. hehe, i'm really grateful to you all. maybe you don't know that ypu already helping me, hehe. tapi sepuluh dedikasi di atas itu berperan dalam unas rikruk. yeah, hehe.


ya, sampe di sini dulu. dan seperti biasa, mari kita tutup postingan kali ini dengan cuplikan lirik lagu di bawah. see ya all! :D

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Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

( Que Sera Sera - Doris Day )

Just Wanna Say Goodbye For A While ^^V

haihaaiii...yayaya...dan..babai...


ehm, maksudnya, ini adalah postingan terakhir untuk beberapa hari terakhir ini. Mungkin nggak akan ngepost seaktif biasanya, yang biasanya 2 atau 3 hari sekali post. Karena apaa? Hmm?
Karena rikruk akan menghadapi Godzilla! Eh,,,maksudnya UNAS alias Ujian Nasional. Yeah, jadi sepertinya hari-hari terakhir ini nggak bisa internetan seleluasa dulu. Kan saya juga pengen dapet nilai bagus, jadinya ya harus berusaha dan mengurangi kegiatan yang nggak begitu perlu untuk menghadapi unas :(
Nah, untuk semua yang baca postingan ini, entah kakek, nenek, adek, mbak, mas, ibu, bapak, dan sebutan anda, rikruk mohon doanya ya, semoga rikruk dan teman-teman sekalian diberi kemudahan, kelancaran. dan nilai yang baik untuk unasnya, amiiin...


yaa...let's vaccum for a while, and don't miss me damn so much yeah! #geer xDD

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I’m not scared of anything
Still, there are only unknown things
I run through, raising my speed
Because I don’t want it to end as it is yet
I do it

( I Do It - YUI )

a heartbreak victim's epilogue: it's the time, now for forever

Today is sunny, bright day
I just walk through the path shown in front of me
Smiling, singing my favorite song
But suddenly, it's all turn around
The sky become dark, the rain drops has falling down


It's just because a little thing, little thing
I'd keep it so long...long ago
The time when I met you for the first time
When I saw you not just as a friend
But as my first, first desire...


Time has turn...turn...turn...
Left me alone between past and future
Now I must choose, forget or remember
Left or stay


If it's really the time
I must leave, I must forget
Because I know, my decision is not only for now
But for forever after, my future, my destiny


Yes, I forget you. Goodbye. Have a good life without me again.

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Get a call on a random afternoon
I pick it up and I see that it's you
Like my heart, you were breaking the news
You say it's over, it's over, it's over

I found a place where I can lose myself
And just leave your memory on the shelf.
See I'm fine, no I don't need nobody else
Cuz I'm going, I'm going, I'm going

( Forget About You - Big Time Rush )

a letter to both of you, who always there for me even we're apart

untuk dua temanku, the two friends who always there for me, even we're apart...


terima kasih banyak, buat kamu. buat kepedulianmu. walaupun udah 2 tahun nggak ketemu. tapi kamu selalu peduli. kayak dulu waktu sd. kamu juga peduli, walaupun tingkahmu itu njengkelin. terima kasih banyak, karena kamu selalu mengharapkan yang terbaik untuk semua orang. makasih sudah mau ngajak aku chat setiap sama-sama onlen, nanyain kabar, bercanda, pas aku bener-bener lagi stress dan bayak tekanan, kamu mesti ada kayak dulu. sampai sekarang kamu masih jadi temen yang baik. aku bersyukur punya temen kayak kamu. 


terima kasih juga, untuk teman sebangkuku pas sd. kamu temen sebangku paling awet deh, satu tahun. hahaha. makasih ya udah mau ngingetin untuk selalu sabar dan berusaha. dari dulu sampe sekarang, kamu masih inget aku kayak gimana. beneran...makasih banyak banget buat kamu juga. terima kasih juga untuk doa, dukungan, dan segalanya. 


kalian berdua, dua di antara sejuta, bener-bener teman sejati :)

In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well you came and open me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you....

( That's What Friends Are For - Stevie Wonder )

What It's Feel Like..Having First Love ( Nam's Side )

All of us, have someone who is hidden in the bottom of the heart.

When we think of him, we feel like...always feel a litle pain inside, but we still want to keep him. even though we don't know where is he today, what is he doing, but, he is the one who makes me know this. 

( Nam - Crazy Little Thing Called Love )

ohmegosh nam asik banget seh di situ jadi kepengen argh #plaaked #abaikan xDD

how to learn yesterday moment

how to learn yesterday moment, 
don't look at the face, look at heart. maybe she was doing something wrong and make all of us hurt, but everything happen for a reason, rite? we can't blame the other if we don't know why she do it. Maybe she hurts too, because of us. We don' care about her feeling, her condition, maybe that's the reason for her act.


We're all human, we're all have sin, we've been doing something wrong, nobody perfect. and, I ask you all, why do you act like you know everything? Why do we always look at the bad side, not at the good side. When one of us said to let it flow and over, you say we can't over it. Why we can't? Because you hurt! But I'm not, exactly.


so, let this over. let we start again. just be a good friends without any bad judgement each other. 

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aku sayang kalian semua.aku tidak mau ada yang terluka.aku tidak mau ada yang melukai.biarpun kalian telah menyakiti, aku tetap bisa tersenyum untuk kalian, karena kalian satu-satunya teman di dunia, yang tidak bisa ditukar dengan apapun. kalian berharga, kalian berarti.aku sayang kalian semua.

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This is too sad
It can't be over like this
You always look like you understand
I want to close this distance between us through faith and doubt
Every day, so it doesn't end

( Cloudy - YUI english translation lyric )

Lyric of The Day - Should've Said No

sicksicksick! sucksucksucks! today i got ill and i can't go to school! huaaaaaaa! so, 'cause i still feel a little dizzy and headache, i just want to share this lyric to you all, and thank you to metrolyrics.com for the credit. enjoy! :)


Taylor Swift - Should've Said No


It's strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you feels wrong

You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word
'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me

And I should've been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

You can see that I've been crying
And baby you know all the right things to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same

You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word
'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me

And I should've been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

I can't resist before you go tell me this
Was it worth it? Was she worth this?
No, no, no, no, no, no

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word
'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me

And I should've been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

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i like this song! haha...sorry i can't post good enough than this, i'm sick and i must go to school tomorrow! yeaaaaah! hwating!


cheers :)

sungguh bosan sekali hidup saya akhir-akhir ini -__-

oh yeah, hello, haloha, whatever.. *pasang muka males*
hari ini sebenernya ada niat ngepost, cuman gaada inspirasi, internetan juga kayaknya lagi menguap antusiasmenya *wuih tumben banget* dan selain itu saya juga males belajar buat try out b.ing besok *ditampar*
soo...saia mau berbagi kebosanan sajaaa...gimaanaa? setujuu? *jelas nggak ada*
karena sebentar lagi ujian nasional *oh please don't remind me about this* sekolah rikruk tercinta alias spensa memberikan kebijakan bagi kelas 9, yaitu pelajarannya dikurangin jadi cuma 3 pelajaran sehari, kan biasanya 4 tuh..dan pulang lebih awal, jadi kalo biasanya pulang jam setengah dua gitu, sekarang jadi bulang jam sebelas empatlima..*leh, kan asik?*
iya asik, pulang cepet. tapi entah kenapa kegiatannya jadi mboring *apaan nih?* gitu. sekolah.belajar. pulang.tidur/nonton tv. besoknya gitu lagi. heuuuh boseeeeeen -___-
dan lagi, sekarang peajarannya cuman pelajarannya cuman pelajaran unas doang, jadinya kayak gimanaaaaa gitu. jadi cuma itu-itu aja. gaada tastenya. hambaaaar *gaya tukang masak nggak jadi*
soooo...gimana caranya ngilangin kebosenan ini? yeah, satu-satunya cara adalah UNAS CEPET SELESAI JADI BIAR SANTAI EN BISA SENENG-SENENG . nahhh...udah pake caps keinjek tuuh..digedein..
jadi, semoga tanggal 25 april cepet datang dan 28 april cepet selesaaaaaai..then it's over!
oh, it's just a wish, that will be cometrue,,,amiiiinnn :)


seperti biasa, di ending postingan rikruk selalu menyelipkan sepotong lirik lagu buat penutup gitu. biar keren juga sih kesannya, heheheee :p *ditendang sampe monas sama readers* 


right, see you then..on the next geje posted and unrealistical written and writers :p


cheers :)

Kisetsuhazure no saafuboodo ni
Ano natsu wa kitto ikiteru
Taiyou wa zutto oboete ita hazu sa
Ne, kikoeteru
”Namida wo misenai” tte, kimi wa sou itte
Bokutachi wa futari te wo futta
Sayonara wa iwanai, dakara te wo futta
Yuuyake ni kieta, I remember you
( I Remember You - YUI )

what do you want to be, child?

The teacher: " What do you want in your future? What do you want to be?
The student: " I don't want anything."
The teacher: " What?"
The student: " My father said the most important thing is integrity. If I don't tell lies, I tell truth, I don't fight, and I appreciate the others, absolutely the others will appreciate me too.
The teacher: " ........ (don't say anything)"

(Taken from CJ 7 movie)

a heartbreak victim's epilogue: i wish i can let you flow away and gone

i really hate myself like this

i pretend that i'm a strong-hearted girl

that wouldn't cry because a silly reason

that wouldn't hurt because a creature named boy

and wouldn't be fragile because the face that can't be forget

you know, i try..very hard

but my friend keeps telling me that i can't forget him

i try, 'til i can't sleep on the night

but they keep telling me that i wouldn't do that

so, tell me now, what should i do?

'cause i 'm really hopeless now

you are the one who can make me like this

you make me can't love the other

you make me hurt and hurt, more and more

you know i just receive more scars

i just wish

i can let you flow with my tears

and gone forever

and someday, when we meet again

i can say "hello" without any scar and tears

like our first meet

i hope, i wish, it will come true

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

(Teardrops on My Guitar-Taylor Swift)

an info about: Xeroderma Pigmentosum

aloha everybody! sekarang mau ngeshare info nih, karena rikruk habis nonton film "Taiyou no Uta'-nya YUI, jadi tau ada penyakit namanya Xeroderma Pigmentosum. Di film ini YUI jadi Kaoru Amane yang menderita penyakit itu. Karena penasaran, rikruk cari deh infonya, buat dishare di sinii...


Xeroderma Pigmentosum adalah penyakit bawaan atau kelainan pada kulit di mana kulit sensitif sama sinar matahari terutama sinar ultravioletnya (UV). Kalau penderita terkena sinar matahari, di kulitnya akan muncul bercak-bercak hitam (di bagian tubuh yang terbuka, kayak muka, tangan, kaki, tapi yang tertutup nggak kenapa-napa) karena sel-sel kulitnya rusak. Bercak-bercaknya memang nggak menimbulkan rasa sakit, tapi kalau sering terkena lama kelamaan akan menjurus ke kanker kulit.


karena ini penyakit bawaan atau keturunan, penyebabnya ya karena pertautan kromosom antar keluarga. karena perkawinan antar saudara itu memungkinkan kromosom yang ada penyakit itu jadi menurun. Makanya ada larangan perkawinan antar saudara, karena salah satu resikonya adalah menyebabkan keturunan kita jadi kena penyakit keturunan.


Bayi yang terkena penyakit ini biasanya belum ada tanda-tandanya, kelihatan baru di umur 1-2 tahun. Fase anak-anak itu yang paling kasihan bagi penderita. karena tidak boleh terkena sinar matahari, mereka hanya bisa keluar untuk bermain di malam hari. Biasanya mereka disebut anak kegelapan, anak-anak malam, atau lebih kasar: anak vampir. Selain kanker kulit, anak-anak penderita XP bisa mengembangkan masalah lain seperti kebutaan, tuli, keterbelakangan mental, koordinasi yang buruk (kalau di film Taiyou no Uta, Kaoru tidak bisa lagi bermain gitar karena tangannya sudah tidak bisa memetik senar T.T), spastisitas, atau pertumbuhan fisik terbelakang. 


Faktanya, orang Jepang mempunyai resiko enam kali lebih besar terkena penyakit ini (apa karena ini ya film Taiyou no Uta ngangkat penyakit ini). Sampai sekarang belum ditemukan obatnya, kecuali kalau pake penerapan rekombinasi gen atau terapi gen ya, itu kan bisa untuk mengobati penyakit bawaan. Tapi terapi gen itu lebih utama untuk penyakit Parkinson, jadi nggak tahu bisa apa nggak buat XP. Tapi untuk memperpanjang hidup (aduh bahasanya alamak deh) penderita XP biasanya melindungi diri dari sinar matahari, melakukan cek mata dan kulit secara berkala, dan melakukan terapi kanker. 

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yep, sudah selesai deeeh. gila, ngumpulin infonya plus nerjemahin dari blog kesehatan butuh waktu 3 hari! yeah, itu juga karena guenya males sih. salahin sekolah, yang bikin mood ngepost turun drastis! *ngeles* well, sudah itu infonya, semoga bermanfaat, dan terima kasih buat budayangeblog en medterms yang sudah bersedia infonya saya copas secara tidak sadar, ini sudah dicantumkan creditnya, jadi tetep menghormati. sisanya itu info yang gue tau dikit-dikit.

alright then, see you later in other post. goodbye, have a nice day all! :DD 

biga geuchigo namyeon, gwaenchanha jilkka
nae mameul alkka, aju jogeumirado
(Little By Little- Park Jiyeon)